What happens

I can’t understand what’s happening, all are going great forward but on some way I’m halting, I don’t know why, I don’t want to halt. I just want to move on and get a job.
It can be that I’m just frustrated that I “just” got English lessons now, but then I haven’t done anything like that in quite a while.
So I can’t take more, then I just risk to make it even worse. I just have to grab myself in the neck and pull myself up.

Well it isn’t the easiest, but I got to try, I got to make it for my own sake.